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Re: Without You ~PG-13~
Chapter 11
"Hello?" I asked as I got in my car, even thought I already knew who it was.
"Where the hell are you?" he asked.
"I'm sorry. I went to Borders for a little bit and I totally forgot I had my cell phone with me. I'll be home in a bit."
"That's all right. I was just starting to get a little worried."
Oh please. I thought. I've only been gone for ten ****ing minutes. Give me a break here. "Well, do you need me to come home any time soon?" I left out the fact that I was meeting with Jim, but he didn't need to know that.
"Are you finished packing?"
"Yeah. I finished a couple of hours ago."
"Ok then."
"Bye."
"Bye, " and we both hung up.
I looked through the window. Jim was still there. I smiled and walked out of the car and back into Borders.
"You came back?" he asked.
I sighed. "Yeah. He was just a little worried because I hadn't called him."
"Sounds to me like he's being a bit overprotective."
"Yeah. He gets like that sometimes."
"Doesn't that worry you a little?"
"I've started getting used to it. I think it's just because he works so late."
"Oh. I see."
"You think he's doing something else?"
"Well...I wouldn't know. I've never really met the guy."
"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that."
"No. It's all right."
"Things haven't been the greatest for me lately."
"How so?"
"Just...with him working late." I didn't want to say anything else. I didn't know what else to say.
"Not getting to see him a lot..."
"Yeah..." Should I say something else? I thought. Should I leave? Well...I don't what to be rude or anything...
"You ok?"
I sighed. "Yeah. I'm feeling a little bit better now."
"That's good." We went silent.
"Nicole...?"
"Yeah?"
"Does he hurt you?"
"What?"
"Aaron seems like the kind of person who might do something...oh...I don't know...abusive."
Why the hell was he doing this now?
He sighed. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have asked that."
I looked at him and gave me a half smile. "I guess I should be straight-forward and honest with you. Yes...he hit me once."
"Once?"
"He just did it out frustration. I should have just kept my mouth shut and should have stopped being an idiot."
"Nicole,you need to do something about this. What if he does it again."
"Oh, I'm sure he won't do it again."
"How can you be sure."
"Because...he hasn't done it since the first time."
"Ok. I just want to help you."
"I know,and thank you." I looked at my watch. "Well,I had better go."
"Ok,well,have fun on your trip."
"Thank you," and I walked out of Borders.
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Re: Without You ~PG-13~
Chapter 12
It was really nice getting away from Scranton for a couple of days. But to tell you the truth, I really kind of missed it. But I knew this was the only way that Aaron was going to get me out of the house, and I really needed to have a little bit of adventure. Plus, he was being nice doing all this for me. So I couldn't rain on his parade.
"What if we stay for New Year's?" he asked.
"Aaron, you know we don't have the money."
"I could have my mom wire us some."
I knew how much this meant to him, and I really didn't want to say no, so I just went along with the plan. Staying for New Years' wasn't going to be so bad I guessed.
I wanted to write letters to people so badly. I hadn't seen my family in a while and I was really starting to miss them. But I also wanted to write letters so some friends of mine, especially Pam and Jim. They seemed like to be my only friends. I kept wondering if they missed me at all. I highly doubted it because I knew that they had their own plans. And I didn't want to interfere with anyone's plans. And besides, Aaron would probably kill me if I did anything like that.
I mean, New York City was great, but Scranton was home to me now. And sometimes people do tend to get a little homesick once in a while. I felt like I was being stupid just thinking about this. So, when Aaron decided to go workout downstairs, I thought I'd make a call to Jim.
The phone rang twice and almost thought he wasn't going to pick it up, but he did on the third ring.
"Hello?" he asked.
"Hey."
"Hey you! What's up?"
"Not much. Just chilling out. Aaron's downstairs working out."
"And you aren't doing anything?"
"I'm exhausted Jim. We've been walking around Time's Square all day."
"Sounds like you're having fun."
I sighed. "I am...I just really miss you guys."
"Then why don't you come home?"
"I can't. Aaron wants to stay for New Year's."
"I see..."
"Jim, I have no money. Do you think I can leave now?"
"I'm sorry. I'm getting on your nerves aren't I?"
I laughed. "Just a little."
"So, when are you coming back?"
"Hopefully the day after New Year's. We seriously need to go back to work. I still don't know how Aaron can afford all of this."
"I guess working overtime kind of helps."
"Yeah...I guess so." I think heard a knock on the door. I knew it had to be Aaron. "Someone's at the door so I had better let you go. Bye."
"Bye,"and he both hung up.
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Chapter 13
Well, a couple of days went by and 2006 had kicked in, and it was time to go back to Scranton. It was nice going back home. I mean, New York is great and everything, but Scranton is home and sometimes I do tend to get a little homesick.
About 24 hours after we got back home Aaron had to go back to work. I hated that he had go through this, especially since we had only been home for a day. I don't think he cared though. Sometimes I think he was happy getting away from me, and sometimes I think he just wanted to go home. I knew from the moment we got to Scranton that he would hate it. He loved being home with his family, and I think being away from them was the reason why he had a temper sometimes.
A couple of days went by for me. It was nice getting back into the swing of things. And then that Friday hit.
When I got to my desk that morning, there was a memo from Michael by my computer (and I wasn't the only one who had gotten one. Apparently everyone else had gotten one too). He had told us to bright a bathing suit, toothbrush, rubbersole shoes, and a ski mask.
I had no idea what the hell was going on and no one did either. Michael wanted us in the meeting room after work to tell us where we were all going, but that was the only thing he would tell us.
So,liked everyone else,I worked until five,and then went into the meeting room with everyone else. And guess what we all found out? That we were going on a booze cruise that night. Michael said that this had sometime to do with a leadership deal. I wasn't really paying attention (neither was anyone else but Dwight probably).
So,when I got into my car as I left the office I told Aaron where we were going. He didn't mind at all. He was going to be working late again so he said he probably won't be home until around two or three in the morning.
I was really starting to wonder if Aaron was really working late. What Jim had said at Borders was kind of starting to get to me. But I knew that Aaron wouldn't lie to me. He wasn't out doing anything stupid. So why was I starting to think that?
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Chapter 14
It was probably around seven or eight when we got to the ship, which was on Lake Wallenpaupack. Like everyone else, I thought it was pretty stupid to be doing this in January. It was probably like thirty sometime degrees outside! But oh well. It was kind of nice getting out of the house.
When we got to the main floor everyone sat down. I decided to sit in the back just in case Aaron wanted to call me (I didn't think that would happen though because he did tell me that he was going to be working late tonight...like usual).
About five minutes later Jim came over. "You want to sit when us?" he asked.
"Nah. I'm fine. I need to here the phone just in case Aaron calles me."
"All right then," and he left me.
I kept asking myself why I wasn't over there with them having a good time. But I really didn't even want to be there in the first place. I wanted to be at home reading a book or watching T.V. Then...my cell phone started to ring. Someone was calling me from home. No. I thought. It couldn't be Aaron. He told me he was working late.
"Hello?" I asked.
"Nicole..." it was Aaron. "We need to talk."
I then went outside so I could hear him. "What do you mean?"
"I have to be honest with you Nicole....and I thought I would do this when you weren't here."
"What...?"
"I haven't been honest with you these past couple months about me working late. I've been at strip clubs and I feel in love with a girl I met there. Nicole,I'm sorry, but I can't have a relationship with you anymore."
I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I thought I was having a dream or something and I neeed to wake up and just find him sleeping by my bed. But I knew this wasn't a dream and I had to come back to reality.
"I'm sorry, but it's over," and he hung up the phone.
I sat down. I was in disbelief and shock. How the hell could he have done this to me? And when I went all that trouble to go to New York with him. He just stood me up! I starting crying. He was such a great person and he just cheats on me. Just like that!
I got up and looked out onto the lake. I could here Jim and Pam talking. But I couldn't stop crying angry tears. I thought someone would here my but no one did.I was glad for that. So I just started singing:
Without You
The Ground Thaws
The Rain Falls
The Grass Grows
Without You
The Seeds Root
The Flowers Bloom
The Children Play
The Stars Gleam
The Eagles Fly
Without You
The Earth Turns
The Sun Burns
But I Die
Without You
Without You
The Breeze Warms
The Girls Smile
The Cloud Moves
Without You
The Tides Change
The Oceans Crash
The Crowd Roars
The Days Soar
The Babies Cry
Without You
The Moon Glows
The River Flows
But I Die
Without You
The World Revives
Colors Renew
But I Know Blue
Only Blue
Lonely Blue
Within Me, Blue
Without You
Without You
The Hand Gropes
The Ear Hears
The Pulse Beats
Without You
The Eyes Gaze
The Legs Walk
The Lungs Breathe
The Mind Churns
The Heart Yearns
The Tears Dry
Without You
Without You...
I took out my cell phone. I wanted to throw into the water out frustration because I was so mad. But I decided not to. I wanted to kill myself instead. I thought that there was just no point in living now.
I stepped up on the rail. Well,here goes nothing. I thought. Yeah, this'll be a nice way to end my life. I'll drown, even though I know how to swim.
I was just about to jump too, but two hands saved my life that night.
"Oh no! I don't think so!" yelled Jim as he pulled me down.
"LET ME GO!" I yelled as I strangled to get out of his strong grip.
"What the hell are you doing?!"
But I just kept screaming, "LET ME GO! "LET ME GO GOD DAMMIT!" I stopped about two minutes later. He hugged me and I started crying. "Why did you stop me?"
"I'm not going to let you hurt yourself Nicole. Why did want to jump in the first place?
I wouldn't tell him thought. I just kept crying.
"Shhhhhhh...It's all right. Everything's going to be fine."
"How can you say that?"
I had stopped him dead in his tracks. "Let's go sit down and I'll tell you what just happened to me."
We sat down and he explained to me that he had just broken up with Katy, his girlfriend. I couldn't believe that.
"Why would you want to break up with her?"
He sighed. "We weren't even having a relationship, so what was the point?"
"Yeah,I see what you mean."
"Ok, so I just told you my story. Why did you want to jump?"
"Aaron had called me earlier. He told me the reason he had been out late was because he had been at strip clubs and told me that he had fallen in love with another woman and just flat out told me our relationship wasn't going to work..." I paused. "You were right..."
"You still remember what I said?"
"Yeah."
"Well,I knew something was going on."
"And how stupid I was not to believe you."
"Not everything last I guess."
"Jim..."
"Yeah?"
"Look,I know you have a thing for Pam."
"You do?"
"Yeah. I first noticed it at your party when everyone was leaving. I keep thinking that she deserves better than Roy."
"You really think that?"
"Yes...I really do. He's not her type and I know something is going to happen between them. I mean,I've seen how he treats her."
"Well,I'll keep that in mind. But I'm getting cold so I'm going to go back inside. Are you going to be all right now?"
I nodded. "Yeah I'll be fine."
"All right then, "and he got up and walked off.
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Chapter 15
I really didn't know what to do after Aaron had broken up with me. A part of me said that I should stay in Scranton and face the fact that Aaron wasn't going to come back. The other part was telling me that I should go back home and turn my life around. I was just so confused.
I really wanted to go back home. The only problem was that I didn't have the money. Without Aaron there I just didn't have as much. But I knew that this wasn't the life for me. I knew that I had to call my parents and tell them that I was coming home...and everything else that had happened.
Another problem was telling everyone. I didn't think that really mattered though. But I knew that talking to someone about my decision would probably make life more easier. So I thought it would be best to have Jim come over and tell him my plans.
So,the next day when I got to work I went right over to Jim's desk. "Hey Jim. Are you doing anything tonight?"I asked.
"No...why?"
"Could you come over to my house tonight? I need to talk to you about something."
"Yeah sure."
"All right. Thanks,"and walked off to my desk without saying anything else. I thought that everyone in the office were kind of thinking about what would happen to me now. I didn't care though.
When I got to my desk there was a card there from Jim. It said:
Nicole,
I hope you're doing all right. I know this probably must be a hard time for you. I heard some rumors that you might be leaving. If you do,that's totally up to you. You need to do whatever makes you happy.
-Jim
I put the card in my desk drawer and started working. I didn't need this to get to me. But the rumor was right...I just didn't know when I was going to leave. It would only be a matter of time before I did though.
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The day went by pretty fast. I was just ready to go home. Well,the place that I would be calling home for a little longer.
Jim call around 6 to tell me what he would be coming shortly. The house was already clean so I didn't need to mess with anything. I was just scared of what he might say. I just needed to keep cool.
Fifteen minutes later there was knock on the door. I opened the door and there was Jim.
"Hi,"he said.
"Hey. Come on in,"I moved so he could get it.
"Nice place,"he said as he walked inside.
"Thanks..." Should I tell him now, or should I wait until he's sat down. Oh god I'm so nervous!
"So, are the rumors true?"
"What?"
"The rumors that you're leaving."
"Why don't you sit down."
He sat down and I sat down next to him. I was silent. I just didn't know what to say. But then I just decided to say it. "Yeah... they're true. I'm going back home next week."
"I thought you might say that."
"Really?"
"Well,I could tell really. I know your life isn't here Nicole."
I gave a sigh of relief. "Thanks."
"Did you get my card?"
"Yeah I did. Thank you." I went silent again.
"Are you ok?"
"Yeah I'm fine now. I was just scared."
"Scared of what?"
"Your reaction. I didn't know how you were going to take this."
"Don't be scared of me. I just like to annoy Dwight and you should know that by now."
"Yeah..."
"If you need any help,you know where to reach me. But I had better be going."
"All right. Thanks Jim."
"Hey,it was no problem."
"Thanks. I just don't know how to tell people. "
"Well,they're going to know soon enough right?"
"Yeah."
"You might as well tell them Monday then. Bye,"he opened the door and left.
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Re: Without You ~PG-13~
Epilogue
In less that two days my stuff was packed and I was ready to go home. In some ways,I was glad that I was going home. The only thing I didn't like about it was that I was really going to miss my friends.But I knew this was the best thing for me.
Since I didn't have a ton of stuff to take home,I decided that I was going to fly home since I knew it would be easier.My flight out of Scranton would be around nine in the morning on Saturday.I didn't know if anyone was going to come and say goodbye to me.It really didn't matter because everyone had already said goodbye to me the day before.
When I got to the gate,there were two people standing there that I recognized. It was Jim and Pam.
"What are you guys doing here?"I asked,a little surprised.
"Well,you're leave so we wanted to say goodbye,"said Jim.
I smiled. "Thanks.
Pam was the first one to give me a hug,then Jim.
"I'm really going to miss you,"he said.
"I'm going to miss you too. I'm going to miss both of you." I really didn't know what to say. "Well,I guess I had better get going. I don't want to miss my flight."
"Don't forget to call all right?"asked Pam.
"I won't. Thanks for coming up here you guys."
"Anything for a friend."
"Well, see ya later,"said Jim.
"Bye." I went to my gate,got passed security,and watched as they both headed out of the airport.
I didn't know if I was going to return to Scranton after that.I probably wouldn't because of what happened.But I know that I will never forget this place or the people I met while I lived here.
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