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The Wedding Celebration
I thought I would never see the day that she would be taken from me. I thought that perhaps I could keep her always, as butterfly in a jar, and never have to set her free. She was the constant in my life, more constant than the chase I had been on for nearly a quarter of my life, more constant than the knowledge that I would never be a free man.
I sighed and absently plucked a dry twig from the bushes outside the hall where the wedding was. I wanted to turn and leave and let Cosette slip away like twilight. I wanted to hide myself away into some dark recess of the earth where only Time and Death would find me. Where eventually the memory of Jean Valjean, 2-4-6-0-1, M. Madeleine, and M. Fauchlevent, would be erased and fade.
But I rose from the bench I had been sitting on and let the twig fall to the cobblestone beneath my feet. With a sigh, I opened the door and entered the swirling mass of color that was their wedding reception. The room seemed to be caught up in a frenzied waltz and I passed through, silently, hoping that I would not be noticed. Not even by Cosette.
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"Have courage for the great sorrows in life, and patience for the small ones; and when you have laborously accomplished your daily task, go to sleep in peace. God is awake."
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A boldheaded old screeching fool trying to sort dust in the air , a limbless moaning criple , creatures hardly human pulling their chains , pushing their grids , the walls, the linen drowned in the smell of death . a thousand voices , wailing in misery, crying in pain , screaming in fear , in anger or hate and laughing in complete insanity - a glance over my shoulder into what I was forced to call my residence . I turned my head to catch a view out of the window and into the night , to glare at the stars - betrayed they had me ; <<and for all my endeavour and relinquishment this should be what I have deserved ? This should be our lord's fate for me ?>> I thought , looking down on my in dirty linen wrapped wrists ... death had become my only desire .
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his touch, his voice...his breath....his kiss...as the dirty air of the sewers filled my lungs..as i came back to the world of the living i could still feel them all. For So many nights I wondered if he had made it from the barricade.
Now as i stand in the shadows of the street, as I hear the laughter of the wedding guests, as i catch a glimpse of his smiling face through the window I find my self smiling, he was happy.
But where did that leave me?
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nothing is any different, is it? but i don't mind; i'm alive, and out of that little orphans' hospital and i can listen without hearing dying children or smelling castor oil. i can hear a wedding celebration down the block, but i'm standing by a public garden, smelling the flowers. but i don't know what to do; i'm a little boy and i don't want to go back to my elephant or even try to find a place to sleep.
so what do i do now?
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I watched Cosette as she danced with Marius. She seemed so happy, so in love with him. I turned away, unable to bear the sight. For so long it had just been us two, keeping each other alive, motivating each next calculated step... and then... and then there he was wooing her to him. I didn't even realize it until the night of the barricade, when that gamine had brought the letter. He didn't mean to take her away, but there she was, slipping out of my hands, growing into the woman that I was hoping she would never discover within herself.
I closed my eyes, feeling the room spinning with the music and light and laughter and happiness. I didn't want to be here. But something forced my feet on the ground where they were, forced by back to stay pressed to the wall in the corner, forced me to face the fact that my daughter was growing up and I was powerless to stop her.
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"Have courage for the great sorrows in life, and patience for the small ones; and when you have laborously accomplished your daily task, go to sleep in peace. God is awake."
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I remember the street clearly , the street that lay beyond << my >> window... At daytimes it was crowded with traffic .In the darkness of the night it lay in silence...now even more that it was covered in snow swallowing every sound . I longed to be on the other side of the wall...to throw my cage of flesh into the twinging ice and fall asleep with the pleasant thought that I would not wake up again
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With a sigh, I continue to watch what feels like a dream to me. It was as though I was watching life unfold in a water globe and inside were these people who were so immensely happy, even when the globe was shaken. I knew her place was with him now. He would be her guardian. Together they would start a new life... and I had to question whether or not I had a place in it. Of course, she would assure me that I did, afterall, I was her father... but deep inside, I could not help but feel like all I would become was a burden. I could not accept that.
Cosette... I whispered, though I knew that she could not hear me with everything else going on in the room. Tears sprang to my eyes as I thought, if my place is not with her, where is it?
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... but the window was locked.
<< Merciful god >> I muttered , cramping my emaciated hands to fists << go on,ridicule me ! >> ... yes... I felt ridiculed...Didn't I do all in my power to please , praise and serve god ? And when he finally made me see his Incarnation - choosing this man to reach his glory , his love - he denies me death...hell couldn't be worse then this place of human deformation . A rush of panic overcame me , I felt my hands jittering , agitation growing in my veins...I had to get out , out of this place , out of this body
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Numbly, I moved from my post the corner. I could not watch anymore. I felt as if the room was closing in around me. It was all becoming too much, so much that I felt like I would be swallowed up in it if I stayed any longer.
I went back outside to where I was. The air was sharp and cold and the first breath of it stabbed my lungs. Above me, the stars were just as cold and bitter. Suddenly I was struck with the vastness of it all- how my life, my sorrow was so small, so insignificant. What did it matter that my daughter was leaving? What did it matter that when I robbed that house to get food for my sister's child, that I would inevitably rob myself of any contentment in life? What did it matter that I had to always escape the law? It didn't matter, none of it did.
I looked back at the window. It would be best if I left them to celebrate as they were. Let them search for me later. I would not be at the Rue Plumet house. I would move on, as I always did. I didn't need much, just a roof over my head and some provisions, nothing more.
I smiled at her through the glass, but she did not see me. Goodbye, Cosette... I whispered. My eyes were dry, but yet, I felt as though I could cry a thousand tears. Something in me would not let me cry. Something told me that I had to run from her now.
I started off down the street, my footsteps echoing in the dark as I went. Where I was headed, I knew not, but then again, it didn't matter.
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It came to this now and then...I lost it , I really did... I don't exactly remember how I managed it but minutes later my shaking hands were opening old cuts again , what a pleasant feeling it was, the blood shooting out of my veins ...my nightdress drowning in the red liquid ...a smile ran over my lips before I gave in to blackness...
... tied tightly to the hard bed with both hands and feet I found myself when I woke up... this was it...I had even given up trying now...over...no chance , nothing , emptiness and no one to ...care
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