ryoko
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Soiled Whilst Waiting
It won't stop anymore
I can see that now
Running away can't save me forever
Because it catches up with me
Takes a hold of me
Wraps me back around it's fingers
My fingers
The ones that held me down for so
Very long that I couldn't breathe
Hard to catch it again
Breath that goes into my shriveled
Lungs that are deprived of air
Clean air that it so desparetly
Desires as I desire what comes for me
In it's terrorizing glory
Hauntingly nostalgic remedies
For every little turn in life
Ones that fill me with shame to
Even know I'm thinking
Thoughts that make me scream because I
Know that I am just like all the
Others that think them
Stupid children without knowing
Anything about it at all
But I do know
I know more than I want to
I know and yet I can't stop
Any of it from happening
And I'm cold
I'm lonely while I keep it all
Bottled up
Letting it catch me in my
Silent vulnerability
I'm reaching for you to help me
You told me to reach for you
But you never reach back
What is it you really want
To do when I'm like this
Will you help me
Can you do it really
Like you say you can do whenever
You pass my shadow and feel the
Guilt that takes over a body
When faced with a pathetic, sad
Little being, well
I want to know
Where are you when I need you
To chase away my attacker
The ones that capture me again and
Again despite whatever you say
You acted like you cared about
Me and not my attacker's
Goal
What is it you want from me
I'm crumpled and dead while
You make up your mind to help
Say you will help
Leave me when I ask for it
So please, let it wrap me
In it's little fingers again
My fingers
Soiled with all the shame that I
Carry with every step and
Touch
Leave me alone now to all
My fears and desires
But just leave me when you
See what I've become
Leave me
Leave me
Please, just leave me
Alone
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"You will do foolish things, but do them with enthusiasm. "--Colette
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10/5/2004, 10:31 pm
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