ryoko
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Babylon
Horrors that circled my mind
Anxiety that you would come home
Never come back
That's what I had wished, screamed
At the top of my lungs from my bed
Sitting crumpled up in a little ball
My spot of sanctuary
You couldn't reach me
The screams wouldn't fill my ears
Your hands didn't touch my skin
Didn't finger the bruised flesh
I was safe
But held tightly in my mind with fear
Fear you would return and find a way inside
Me and my sanctuary leaving me open
Open to all your screams and touch
Leaving me for you to play with
Be your little toy again
Horror stricken when the sound of the door
Echoed its way into my little ball
My crumpled flesh tingling and shivering
Bruises burning when the steps echoed too
I let myself go
Out of the sanctuary and up again
Coming in with a smile
Ignorantly smiling with eyes filled
Filled with your drunken stupor
And I smiled with yours
Smiled in fear of your wrath
Your fingers on my own again
My eyes glazed with the love I could muster
All for yours to perceive as desire
Desire for the screams and touch
On my body and in my ears
My sanctuary defiled again
Stay so precious only when I can't see you
Feel your hands upon me
Know your voice so clearly
Waiting for that moment once more
When you would leave
Satisfied with what you got
Leaving me alone in a crumpled ball
My mind and sanctuary rebuilding
But waiting for the destruction
Unable to move from the way of the ominous
Not knowing how long it will go
But in utter fear and
Lust for its continuation
Fearful and wondeful
My sanctuary's madness
My babylon
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"You will do foolish things, but do them with enthusiasm. "--Colette
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9/14/2004, 5:46 pm
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