ryoko
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Depressed Smiles
Holy hell this is old! I mean... OLD... Like... Me and Dave time old
Here's the face you think you know
But there's only so much for you I can show
The happy laughter, the smile on my face
But inside, depression has it displaced
Those bittersweet dreams tear at my soul
Sucking me in like a black hole
Lies and despair sill my every step
Pulling all into its endless depth
Your presence breaks a hole through fate
But both our lives it does take
Your warmth surrounds me in calm, loving light
But the demanding world drives us to fight
But you know I want you, close to my heart
Although it tears us both apart
Still, I refuse to let you leave me
But still it does freeze me
You're like a knice in my heart, bleeding me to tears
But for me, you'll always be so clear
The insane, happy laughter was all so fake
All for small conventional sake
The true inside was cold and dark
Giving hold to the death mark
The passage of time destroys me inside
Bringing me memories of the times that I've lied
This aching pain makes me lose all control
My tears stroll down at my own toll
Empty as ever, as breath leaves me
Just a shell of the person I used to be
Enslaved to the fears I let overtake me
Chained to be looked on with pity
Cruel eyes of those who passed by
Pang through my body as if just to die
Cold accusations floor my dulled mind
Abandoned by all of mankind
This shell of a body cold with hate
Will be destroyed on unknown date
Through back to teh fires that damaged it well
Sent back to the pits of a muderous hell
The mind and soul surrendered to not
Can now do nothing but rot
The expression I used over again
Lay in the waste in my souless den
Confined to silence and mad relief
Has done nothing but destroy my belief
The pain and despair built up like tiles
Reveals my true, depressed smiles
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"You will do foolish things, but do them with enthusiasm. "--Colette
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8/28/2004, 2:33 pm
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